When "Imbalance" Becomes "Balance"

Over the last two years I spent a significant time in a state of emotional confusion. One nifty thing that came out of these frequent "flare ups" of emotion was that I wrote poems and songs to help cope.

If I posted all of these in chronological order the emotional sequence from anxiety, to anger, to acceptance, to eventually moving on with my life (and even a couple before I "officially" had moved on that described emotions I was beginning to have) would be clearly visible.

Anyways, I wrote this one pretty early on during the process. I was always quite fond of it. Somewhere along the way I heard that "Love" was an emotion that was triggered by an imbalance/chemical reaction in the brain.

Based off of the relationship I have with my wife, I've come to not believe that so much. "Lust" may be chemical, but actual "Love" is something different. (Though "Lust" may be one of the triggering factors.........O.o /ponder)

Anyhow, I've elected to share these writings over time...and chose this one first:

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Chemical Imbalance


I didn't choose you,
Never wanted you in my heart,
So comfortable and secure in myself,
How did these feelings start?

Love is that way,
There's hardly a choice,
Your heart runs away,
Never hearing your voice,
You try to scream out,
As it's going astray,
No need to shout,
Let your heart run away.

(Chorus)
Don't get to force it,
No need to fight it,
You must accept it,
No need to right it,

Just an imbalance,
It's in your brain,
You can't control it,
It'll drive you insane.

Take you to heaven,
Drag you through Hell,
Just an inbalance,
You'll know that you fell
(Chorus)

You didn't choose me,
Resistant to my loving touch,
Facing life with no fear,
But I'll be your crutch.

Love is that way,
You don't choose a thing,
My heart's hear to stay,
You're feeling that sting,
You wanna scream out,
Your heart's gone astray,
No need to shout,
Let your heart run away...

(Chorus)
Don't get to force it,
No need to fight it,
You must accept it,
No need to right it,

Just an imbalance,
It's in your brain,
You can't control it,
It'll drive you insane.

Take you to heaven,
Drag you through Hell,
Just an inbalance,
You'll know that you fell
(Chorus)

So don't be afraid,
Don't shy away,
Love's an imbalance,
My heart's here to stay....

(Chorus)
Don't get to force it,
No need to fight it,
You must accept it,
No need to right it,

Just an imbalance,
It's in your brain,
You can't control it,
It'll drive you insane.

Take you to heaven,
Drag you through Hell,
Just an imbalance,
You'll know that you fell
(Chorus)

(Riff)
I don't choose to love you...
You don't choose to love me...

(Chorus)
Don't get to force it,
No need to fight it,
You must accept it,
No need to right it,

Just an imbalance,
It's in your brain,
You can't control it,
It'll drive you insane.

Take you to heaven,
Drag you through Hell,
Just an imbalance,
You'll know that you fell
(Chorus)